worst week in the history of me

*this one will be fiery*

somebody ever tell you that everything will be ok as long you try your hardest

yea.. people usually tell you that after you procrastinated too too much and ended up with an amount of work and corresponding amount of time that didn't really match up, logistically..

yea.. well.. that wasn't really the case for me.. i mean.. i procrastinated moderately, just for most of the weekend.. but i worked every day from sunday night at about 6pm all the way to thursday 9am... slept about 5 hours a day.. except for wednesday night.. i had a lot to do, but figured that as long as i didn't mess around too much i'd finish.. i even skipped a couple of meetings and a practice that i'm supposed to be at.. logistically, it was all pretty feasible.. and i wouldn't consider that trying my absolute hardest, but pretty frickin hard and dedicated..

anyways, it's thursday and i'm in class and i haven't finished everything i needed to finish.. i spent most of wednesday night working on something for some class (most meaning all but 1 hour which i spent lyind down trying my very hardest not to fall asleep, only so i wouldn't sleep through my midterm) and i'm not posting this to try and brag about how much i had compared to you.. i mean.. you might've had more..

i'm just trying to say that i tried my hardest, and it wasn't enough.. and it doesn't feel ok.. it doesn't feel like everything is gonna be ok.. it feels like crudddd....

usually when i spend an all nighter.. there's a certain sense of tired ass satisfaction when it's like 8am in the morning and you're done.. but this morning felt absolutely horrible.. i think it's one of the worst feelings i've ever felt.. working through the whole night and not being able to finish..
not not not good good good..

on top of that.. i was looking forward to thursday night because it meant that i would be done with everything and i could enjoy the rest of the week in peace.. but that was taken away from me.. and now i'm just hoping that i'll get a day extension so as to not suffer a late penalty.. i tried my frickin hardest and i'll still get a late penalty..

whatevers.. i'm sorry if this is a ranting post.. maybe it wasn't so fiery...

i would like to shout out april for being so nice this week.. i really hate posts with mushy shit like that, but this week she gave me some really dope support when i was pretty much a lifeless academic zombie.. (yes i just said "dope" and yes i just used to as an adjective for support... support can be dope.. what's wrong with that??..)
but yes.. thank you "gf"riend.. let's get you a wii remote so you can play with me already..