college football is americana

the cal bears football team needs a new defensive coordinator. incumbent, bob gregory, is a way too conservative. and we all know, berkeley is not a place to be too conservative.

actually, i take that back. berkeley has a surprising number of conservatives. people just don't know that because their view of berkeley is a place where drugs run wild and hippies don't wear shoes and don't cut their hairs or shower, and pierce every inch of cartilage possible. i'm almost certain of this. for work, i once made a call to a company located somewhere in southern california, and the dude was talking to me, and was like "oh your name is Joshua? is that the biblical Joshua? i bet a name like that in berkeley is difficult, huh?"

yes, he really said that shit. like berkeley is SOOOOO liberal and anti-conservative/anti-catholic that ANY reference to anything related to conservative side is gonna spark a protest. i really didn't know what to make of that. i mean, this fool wasn't from texas, but from california. i guess it goes to show what the world thinks of us wild and crazy UC berkeley folk.


a lot of times, when i come back home and see old friends, they'll always say something like "you only care about that stuff now cuz you go to berkeley" or something like "why you so against white people, josh?". you know, the type of stuff that makes you feel that your friends think you think you're part of and elitist group and that you think less of them for not caring or knowing about the things you care or know about, all because you went to berkeley. when in the back of my head, i'm thinkin, "why the fuck don't you care about this? it's screwing you over too!" or "why don't you racist hate white people too?" i mean, i never thought that i thought of things that differently from the people around me, but every time that i come home back from berkeley, that's what it feels like, that i think differently from everybody. but at the same time, i'm only thinking through the same head that i've always been thinking. it's quite a lonely feeling. whenever i come home, i feel like more and more people don't understand who i am anymore.

i don't think i'm any better than any of my friends or anybody else back home. i used to think that i was special/unique cuz i got into berkeley, but really i wish everybody i knew got into berkeley too. i wish they could go through this experience, so that maybe they'd understand me more. berkeley doesn't make you more political, per se. just because i care about politics doesn't mean that i wanna be a politician or anything close to politics. i think that berkeley just really helps you to think on your own, which really isn't as common as it should be in this world.


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shit, i just took a break from writing, and i totally forgot how i wanted to end this blog.
ehh.. that's ok.

shoutout to bob marley