excuse me

for all the profanity in this entry.. i'm feeling like an expletive today.. and the soles of my feet are fucking killin me..

and excuse me..
for this angry ass post, but shit.. whatever goes up, must come down..

fuck, sometimes i just feel so fuckin alone.. like nobody around me understands what goes on in my head.. and all there is to do is laugh at the way i act or laugh at by bad speech or laugh just because that's what's expected from everybody, i guess.. and it's unfair on my part to try and expect people to understand what goes on in my head, but feeling alone can get so frickin frustrating.. and it sucks cuz all there is left to do is laugh.. cuz i think that's all i have..

maybe nobody really understands that last paragraph but me..

FUCKING SHIT I HATE EMO POSTS!..

but excuse me
if you've ever thought that i've acted a little weird..

i think sometimes i like to sing to kinna take myself out of a situation that i didn't like.. haha.. there's also this thing about drunk dialing..

speaking of drunk dialing.. GIANT FUCKIN THANK YOU to sandy for the free meal at elephants bar... it was delicious.. and there are some cute girls training along with you on that staff so i will be visiting you HECKA!..

oh and a final excuse me
if you read this
and you don't like me
anymore

spare the air

it's a funny thing seeing people at the bart station paying for bart tickets, when bart is free.. you'd think they'd have station agents at the ticket paystations telling people that bart is free.. but these people are lazy.. or maybe it's entertainment to them..

i also like it when people don't realize that they are entering a moving machine that will throw them off balance when it starts to move.. conversely people that forget to hold on to something when the train is coming to a stop also amuse me..

this is something that i remember seeing on bart.. i shoulda put it down somewhere because i almost completely forgot it.. i was riding home on bart one day.. towards daly city, pilipinas-land.. and i spot this old white man reading a book.. curious to know what old white men are reading these days, i focus on the book cover and what do you know?.. it's not a book but a english-to-tagalog dictionary.. i try not to judge the man but i can't help but just stare at him and wonder why he needs to know tagalog..

maybe he's training for the world tagalog speaking championships for old white men..

i'm urgin you

i have the urge to leave work early tomorrow, cuz i already turned in my time card for the month of june

i also have the urge to clean my buddy list of anybody i haven't talked to in the past 3 months

don't you ever just get the urge to make inappropriate witty and rude comments whenever you feel like it

i always have the urge to just roll down my window and throw shit at mean drivers

but these are just urges

i don't care what you say

corinne bailey rae is my wife. to be.

in other news
basketball at the rsf is the new pogs
and blisters on the bottoms of my feets hurts like a mo'fo

reading is fun.

online time

this really has nothing to do with anything that has happened to me recently.. just something i thought about cuz that's pretty much all i do.. think about things to write about...

when you're signed on to aim, or yahoo messenger, or msn messenger, or google talk, or what have you.. i think it is completely illegal to be in a bad mood while signed on.. especially if you're active, ie not "away".. you have absolutely no right to not be in a mood to talk because you have signed on to a service where all you can do is talk.. and you have no right to be mad while signed on because i think that's just stupid.. if you're not in a good mood when you start up your computer then don't sign on!.. it's that easy.. wait for a good time when you are happy and hyphy and having a good time..

teedra moses is WEEEEE!!..

i remember when i lost my mind

(hey.. i wanna get in on this blog title fun too!)

i lose my mind everytime i'm alone for too long..

like 2 hours too long..

which is funny cuz i also lose my mind when i'm in a place that's too crowded...

happy birfday june babies!

especially the sister.. thanks for the outing to the giants game!..
you are old.. but 23 is a good age to be..

but yes.. speaking of games.. this is for the obnoxious ass fans in our section..
don't get me wrong, i don't mind loud fans or anything like that.. but being annoying is different.. and how the hell are you gonna swear and cuss and be hella inappropriate with little kids RIGHT NEXT TO YOU looking back at you every time you scream some expletive.. daymn people.. where has the decency gone?.. haha.. and i love how you have to be with all your posse to muster up enough courage to say something to the players cuz you know if this were a normal bar setting, they'd wipe your ass up and down that bar..

and it didn't help that you all were white, with backwards hats, and sunglasses (to a night game)..

but i guess it was entertaining watching you disgrace yourselves.. stupid asses..

and to go to the other side of the spectrum.. this goes out to the poser in our section.. who only started to heckle the players once we had a 14-1 lead.. what the HELL??.. that is the closest thing to a home team bandwagoner i've ever seent..

iono.. i guess you had to be there..

but anyways.. HAPPY BIRFDAYS JUNE BABBBBBIES!!

kindness is timeless

yes.. but working in the cory microlab for just 2 days, under people that don't really care much about anything except the advancement of technology through silicon wafers, just makes my kindness feel overlooked.. whatever though, i'm not complaining about easy money.. i just hope that one of them brainiacs starts talking to me and just starts giving me their extra money that they got from intel or somebody.. that's how i plan to make it in this world..

i think the money that i'm gonna make for my first month is already used, before i even get it.. haha.. i guess that's what you get when your sis pays for presents for mom and dad for the past couple years, and when you just take hella long to get a job.. whatevers though.. momanddad, you're gonna love you're new digital camera.. (i know you don't read this.. )

speaking of presents.. i'm very excited to give my sis her bday present.. i hope to take a picture of her reaction..

that entry was very boring and pre-teen-xanga-ish.. i need topics to write on.. BUT MY LIFE IS SO MUNDANE!.. i think i'm gonna make stuff happen..

that's right..magic..