the fob show

oh mayn.. everytime i go a bindlestiff show, there's always some skit that makes me start hella thinking about it.. hella applying it to myself.. and then i hella wanna start writing about it right there.. but of course don't have my beloved blackbook.. and it's too dark there anyway.. and then i forget about what i wanted to write on the bart ride home, and besides, writing later isn't the same as writing in the moment.. you never feel the same.. in class Ruth Forman (a goddess) said that she would always write something as soon as she thought of it.. she said that one time in a club she wrote a line or stanza while she was in a club, with her lipstick.. i really wanna start being that dedicated to writing..
anyways, i hope i'm able to volunteer at bindlestiff once i graduate or something.. their scripts and their actors get the pilipino-ness of it all so much better than i've seen here, in PCNs..

i hate when you have doubleheaders where you win one and lose one.. cuz it's so unsatisfying.. it's like.. oh.. i'm not too mad or too happy..

my engineering advisor doesn't seem to have much confidence in me..